Meiru
Casual fandom enjoyer
(Venting + overshare page)
What I actually do
- Nothing actually (why follow???)
- Reverse image for reposted art.
(Google + Saucenao)
- Fic recommendation (probably).
- Occasionally art or poems.
- Frequently comment on ANYTHING whenever I have the mental energy: art, writing, memes, animation, mental health issue, real life issues (very trying hard not to),...
- This explains my behaviours a lot actually:
I have followers??
Every time I have a new follower, I feel my soul leaving my body: Who the fuck are you? Why are you here???
Listen here, I have no idea why I have followers either. Feel NO obligation to stay around me. Block, mute, unfollow. Be free to do so.
If I SOMEHOW get to 50 followers I'll considering making this a functional account. (Making art and meaningful stuff i guess). No more discourse, only fandom art and writing.
Still, I'm gonna fight against these:
- Art reposting, tracing, no credit.
- Hate towards artists and writers. (Or people just being shitty really)
- Harassment against REAL people.
Past username:
- meiru71593310 : 30 July 21 - 27 August 22
- meiru_tsuki : 27 Aug 22 - 12 Oct 22
- meiru_meoku: 12 Oct 22 - 27 December 22
- meiru_hifuri: 27 December 22 - current
Not welcomed
- Minors do NOT follow please.
- Antis, 'ship hate', ship bashing, kink shaming, harassment, callout, drama, discourse.
(The above is applied for my own self too, I'm pretty stupid and need to learn A LOT)
- “Suffering = good and moral”
- Glorified violence, infantilizing kindness.
- I'm typically pretty chill but actually pretty hot-headed if touched a wrong nerves. Don't punish the behavior you want to see in the world.
- I'm NOT good at handling negative emotions so I do mute angst or drama content at times.
- If you got blocked, don't think too hard about it. But if you receive a mention from me: "You are a very annoying person" then there was a REASON.
Q&A for no one
I'm not in a right mindset for this but whatever.
1. Do you mute people?
Yes, even when I follow you.
2. Are you chronically online?
I'm severly depressed and this kind of fulfills my need for socializing.
3. Why do you sound so fake?
Nah, I'm constantly emotionally drained so I want to feel happy, even just for small amount.
4. Why are you so weird?
This is the first time I actively engage with people online honestly.
5. Why do you reply to anything?
Buddy, I lived (non-interactive) on Tumblr for 2 years during my worst. I definitely picked up a lot of things.
6. Why are your comments the same?
I have a specific structure for compliment depending on how much I interact with the person and the amount of mental energy. Basically it's: [Variations of "I like this"]. [Pointing out which parts I like]. [Adjective + work] + A lot of emojis or exclamations.
- Amazing work: Very skilled
- Lovely work: Emotional impact
- Incredible work: Both of above
6. Why are you so forcefully nice?
Bitch, I CHOSE to be kind. I have an innate rage and anger that makes hurting very easy. I want to be better.
7. Why are you so socially awkward?
Haha, I KNOW. I misinterpret stuff quite a lot and unable to lead conversations. I don't know, I'm still waiting for the day when I get something VERY wrong.
8. What's with the long ass comments?
I think I'm somewhere between a creator and enjoyer. I COULD'VE been a creator. Anyway, burnout makes me its bitch and I don't have enough self-control to keep my thoughts to myself. Glad if my silly comments make someone's day.
9. Why do you delete your interaction?
I'm a FUCKING idiot. I'm so tired. I'm not myself. Performance. Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I? Who am I?
I'm so tired. I didn't think this through. Should have mute and block more. I'm so sorry for any trouble and bother I may have caused. Please.
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Go back. There is nothing to see here anymore.